Adjustment

Whew! Four days away and I'm finally feeling the burn! I'm actually leaving my home, my family, my friends, my bed, and my comfort zone to be gone for two months without a single return. And now, with the move being so close, it's becoming real. Not as real, I'm sure, as it will be once I actually start packing... but very real and very scary when I'm saying bye to people for the last time for two months. Which doesn't sound very long even to me when written down... But it's some scary stuff.

I never have handled adjustment well. I'm not really sure why, but I have my theories. I have been through depression, extreme OCD, and some messed up weirdness that is even surprising to me as a result of adjusting to a new world. But through it God showed me how big He is and He took it all away over night. Literally.

Now I know that He can beat it but I can already feel the attacks from the devil and I'm worried that it will only get worse. Now, just the attacks bring me to tears.. I guess because I don't want to feel the way I felt when I was depressed. It was a very lonely and scary time.

I know that He will provide and bring me a new light and new truths and new friends through this summer camp life that people come from all over the world to experience. I know that it will be an amazing time. But over these next few days I'm going to need constant sustainment from Him and strength I don't know that I have to say goodbye. I love the people I am surrounded by and I love knowing that they are right around the corner when I need them. But this summer God is going to teach me to rely on Him and the people He gives me and not the ones I already know how to rely on.

I know it's going to be hard and worth it. But I am begging you for prayers. I know from experience the power of prayer and what our Lord will do through honest and persistent prayers. So, please, even for just a moment, say a prayer for me. And I know you will be blessed. I promise that I am and will continue to pray for all of you! I love you all, you have made such a difference in my life and I am truly blessed to have you in my life. And now it's time to go learn some new stuff.

"The Lord fulfills the desires of those who hear Him; He also hears their cry and saves them."
Psalms 145:19

God is good.